I’m still not sure what you’re looking for. An editor? To do what? Help you convert 6 years of daily thoughts/ideas into 6 publishable books? Do you need grammar and spelling suggestions, say from a proof reader? Do you need someone to comment and critique on structure?
It could help to clarify all of that. I say it “could” help and not “will” help for a number of reasons.
First reason: is your project gay and mind control themed? You’re on a gay mind control (and related link) forum. You haven’t mentioned anything about that yet. You’re unlikely to get help from people on this forum if those kinks aren’t explored in your writing. Even then, not everyone will be interested in whichever variant of that kink your stories/ideas/drafts explore.
Secondly: without knowing any details, this sounds like a huge undertaking for anyone who gets involved. How much spare time do you expect others to have to help you with this? Personally, I have enough on my plate in my life right now that reading stuff from my favorite authors and providing any feedback is already a challenge. I don’t have time to sign onto something that sounds like it will be a full time job, or take 10 years in my spare time.
Not having any idea about what your project is or if it is something I’d be interested in already makes me wary of asking more.
If your writing is not gay mind control related, I suggest posting on a different forum. I believe you will have little luck on here and will get further frustrated.
If your writing is gay mind control related, I suggest splitting it up conceptually into smaller projects, and asking for help on those smaller projects. For instance, even if you want to make a novel, split it up into chapters and try to get help with each individual chapter. That way someone who agrees to help you doesn’t feel like they’re signing onto a huge time consuming amount of work. Something along the lines of “Could anyone help me by reading a chapter of the book I’m working on? The main character has a mind control device that he uses to seduce his next door neighbor. I’d like to publish it but my spelling and grammar aren’t the best, so I need help with that.” Or “I have the outline of a chapter but need help shaping it into something coherent and would like someone to discuss this chapter with.”
Alternatively, if you just want to discuss your ideas, post something here about one of them. “So, one of the ideas I’m exploring in my writing is… Does anyone have any ideas on where I could take that? Or, this is what I’ve got so far. What do you think? Good idea? Bad idea? Any suggestions?”
Hopefully what I said helps. Getting people to help with your writing, the way you want and need it, is hard.